Conjured Feelings

Was talking to a friend on msn the other day, probably weeks ago by now. She was acting weird and the way she type was rather deflective and so I decided to probe the situation.

Asked about her bf and all but she was not answering the questions.

Finally, the conversation brought us to a halt when she said, "he's a nice guy and he's a great bf...".

What does that mean? He has done nothing wrong, he has been nothing but great. The crucial point would be that you feel lesser for him. He hasn't done any mistakes, at least insufficient for you to leave him. What becomes of the relationship? Drag it on further? Or force it to end?
He has been a sweet heart but you feel the certain annoyance as he tries harder to pamper you because the way you look at him has changed. He hopes to fix the problem. Would it help?

The girl doesn't neccesary has to have feelings for someone else. She probably just meet more people in life, done more things in life and experienced a whole lot more. All these would change how a person react and behave. Perhaps what the guy has is no longer a vital need for the girl...

But...

In general, I believe a relationship that heads this direction... The guy is often the one being left behind... He's stagnant in life while the girl has moved along. I would agree that guys cheat... They show higher percentage of infidelity but when they do love.... They would pour their soul into it, often making them grow slower in terms of life; not size. :D
Girls fall in love with a guy for who he is and what he is. As time pass, the girl would often hope for or wants the guy to adapt and change... Etc etc... 15 years down the road, the wife says... "How come you're not the same man I fell in love with 10 years ago?"

How do we answer?


We would end up wondering, what's the thing in life we want.

Another very dear friend told me. Being with a person and calling the other person sweet names doesn't make you in a relationship. A relationship is where you guys can't get enough of each other. Wanting to see each other all the time. Wherever new place you go, nice things you see, great food you taste... All of which you want to share with the person. When you go shopping or grocery packing, when you buy milk... You don't only think of buying milk; you think of what brand she might prefer... Low fat? Hl? Magnolia?
A relationship is where the two shares everything in life... And continue to share...

Memories

how how?
what is memories?
how is it that when we watch movies or animations or anything like that...
guy meets girl, spends a very short time together, no love yet...

somehow through hardships, something sparked off...

and after something bad happens... they went adrift or apart....
the only memories they had would be of that few days together...

a few days of memories made them miss each other so dearly... even in the show, the only few memories they show are the ones spent together for that few days... few days of memories made the guy willing to face all the dangers of life just to be with her again. emotions, love, feelings are just so powerful...

what about memories that has been through years? are these worth enough to fight? worthy enough to stay on?


how are humans able to devoid themselves of such thoughts?


what about you?

wordings placed,
thoughts entered,
phrases saved,
memories sealed.

motoGP 2009 in Malaysia

not much pictures to update as most of my shots are not with me now... :( these are what i've at the moment....

this time around, the weather isn't so cruel... at least all three category get to finish the race... the bad thing would be that the main event, 500cc motoGP has to start off the race under the rain and wet track...


casey was rather good... he was leading the pack way way ahead....


dani was maintaining it's rhythm all out... keeping at 2nd place throughout the race.... :D


this guy was playing safe... he would still win the wholechamp title if he finish 4th...



overall... it was a decent weekend but i have become an indian to most of the people... people talk to me in BM thinking i'm a malay and etc etc.... argh!!!! hate it... hahaha... oh well... going to be a tanned josh for the next few weeks....

quote from someone in the media centre, "another chapter of motosports has ended, let's prepare for the next one".




gladness swept over,
relieves anxiety,
knowing it,
calms me down.

Beautiful City

Love sitting down and looking out the balcony to such a phenomenal event that happens everyday... despite of the repetitive routine... it's a unique scene every single day... :D



if only i could do this every single day... but then... i'm sure you guys would be bored of seeing such a shot everyday... :P


thoughts kept,
feelings kept,
memories kept,
emotions kept,

how could all these be thrown away?

Jamie & Jennifer's Wedding

Couple of weeks back, was shooting for a colleague's best friend. He couldn't do it himself as he's the BESTMAN! :D



the house was sitting on a hill with a beautiful sunrise every morning


awww... he's helping her set the new watch they got....


first dance at the wedding...


kissing under the lime light... :D


and please... do try to peek anymore... :D

swept off your feet,
surging flow in your body,
urging thoughts in your mind,
love makes you have all this.