Last day of 2009

The year is ending. in less than twelve hours, the calendars replaced and you cannot put 09' anymore as it would be 2010 and it does looks weird if we put 10' as a shortform.

oh well...
there isn't alot to say here.

i've been through ups and downs. a very scary roller coaster of emotions. shards of pain across my chest and there's also jolly halo over my head. how? suck it in and smile. another day ending and a new year arriving. things would always change and alter but i'm sure we're able to adapt to it one way or another. afterall, mankind has survived worse throughout history.

Happy New Year in advance as i would be working throughout eve of 2010.
*cheers* all the best in the year to come

new year coming,
another year leaving,
new memories found,
old ones kept.

Autumn in December

Autumn Autumn, the most bestest favouritest among the four season for me.

It's the time when leaves fall and flowers wither, awaiting the cold winter to come about--giving way to new leaves and flowers to bloom in spring.


Listening to Norah Jones's newest album (the fall) in front of my comp with these speakers, looking at this picture--everything seems so properly placed together. right music for the right scene. she has good voice along with the right tune, makes my room feel so perfect. if only there's real leaves falling ontop of my table now, i would feel like i'm right there in the woods.

seemingly confused,
knowingly convinced,
wickedly smiling,
happily broken.

p/s: don't ask if i shot this... i shot it in malaysia.. okay? >.<

Across the Space

well... stole this picture off the internet. i'm going to shooting from morning until midnight and i don't think i would have any chance to post anything.

this entry is just a mark of a duration.

it has been two years and now everything is across the vast space created through many agonies and miseries. the gap in between is huge. this movie was about a pair of lovers who has come together from two parts of the world. different background, different culture and different ways of living yet falling in love. the feeling of falling in love with the person rather than the physique. being able to know what the other person would be like in whichever situation. knowing they would smile, smirk or laugh.

the warm feeling within your heart and tummy. butterflies in your tummy whirling around. you world seem to be spinning and you become a little kid. heart pumping hard while wanting to the thrill of being near the person. you just lose your cool and at times, things that appear in your mind would come out of your mouth. even the most obscene and weird stuff that might scare the person away. i believe all these only happen once in your life? perhaps twice for those lucky ones.

subsequently, every other would seem different. not bad, not worse, not "just not good enough" but rather just different. you would feel warm and happy--feeling in love but perhaps the thrill would never be there. is that why people say your first love are normally the one you can remember for life? because that's when everything is so pure and love is everything?

random random random~! hahahahahahaha

feelings drifting apart,
moments wanting adrift,
urging every motion
for the heart to love again.

Night Thoughts

started off before 12am of December 1st of 2009 but only decided to start typing at 14minutes to 1am. lingering around the room and chatting randomly with people i've not been talking to for quite some time.



it is nice to catch up with some of the people that used to be around me or people that i used to chat with on a daily basis. things has happened, people come and go but friends would always be around.

thoughts aroused through the memories triggered with occurence around us are the cause to how we react to certain incidents.

complicated phrase? i just type as i thought of the words to depict what i've in mind. either way, i realized i've been randomly making up sentences lately and spilling them out onto papers instead of on my blog. most of these papers would be thrashed in dumped into the bin. i miss how i used to pick up a paper and just write random things long time ago, back in college years. as bad as some of those thoughts came to be, at least it was a way to vent off. when i started blogging, things that appear on the blog has to be decent or perhaps give a more appropriate perception on who i'm. i can't be screaming out loud on how cruel the world could be... could i? perhaps some of my entries had made things sound so bad.

eitherway, do not look at my words in such upset modes. look at it as just words spatted out at you for a little pondering.

i find the picture above makes me fixate on things i don't usually do. more like i've always been a person who's observant towards unimportant things or i would still ignore things that made life worth living. i would seek meaningless things rather than looking around me and cherishing these beautiful things around me. for that, i would thank you for it. best wishes and may only the good would be along your way. glad you've done well.